As I dropped off Holly and Hannah at the church for Girls Camp this morning, I thought of the two girls from our stake who were killed on the way up to girls camp a couple of years ago, and also I thought about Jared and I traveling to San Diego tomorrow for a few days to celebrate our anniversary. (I know...what happy, uplifting thoughts.) But with that in my mind, I hugged the girls and insensitively said: "Remember that if I don't ever see you again, I love you!" I looked at Holly and she was visibly shaken and disturbed and I immediately felt horrible for what was a calloused, flippant remark to her. I pulled her close again and said:"Holly I am so sorry for saying that , please forgive me." Although obviously still upset, Holly responded with these words: "Mom, I forgave you when you said it."
Two lessons learned:
1. Be more mindful of the Holy Ghost when I speak.
2. Forgiveness is a condition of the heart, not something that needs to be earned.
Thank you Holly.